Let us Investigate
Journaling, writing notes, quite meditation, drawing, painting…what ever feels right for you to explore the following:
- What beliefs, patterns, habits are yours and work for you, as opposed to the ones you were taught or are because of societal expectations?
- Are those beliefs, patterns and habits working for you? Do they still fit?
- For those that don’t feel like they do any more, what could happen if you let them go (the worst that could happen and the best)? Would you be ok with that?
- What beliefs, patterns and habits would you like to embrace? Does it feel safe to do so?
I embraced this pattern of panicking about change for years and still at times will feel it raise it’s head, it took some work to discover where it originated. I’ve always been very sensitive (empathic) to the energies of people around me. In my profession it’s been a wonderful trait to have, however at times it can be draining. But that didn’t feel as though it was where the panic response originated. So through journaling and meditation I traveled back through my life and hit on where it originated. My mother was prone to histrionics and could have the entire household in a panicked uproar within minutes. While she may have been panicked and hysterical over something small, as a child I didn’t have the ability to determine that. So there were a lot of things that I felt scared and panicked by, that really were not that big a deal, and that I could eventually put aside as a threat or a danger.
Growing up during the last World War, in Portsmouth, where bombs were dropping and air raid sirens blaring, I understand why my mother had developed this pattern. It would have been a frightening time for children and the adults around them. Her parents died before I knew them, but it could also have been a trait that one or both carried and therefore, passed on to my mother.
Coming to that space of understanding really helped. There was no blame to place here but instead a starting point for my journey in understanding and releasing my panic response to change. An “AHA” moment!
Resources for Investigation
Take your time with this and understand that it’s a task that is never really completed. As we journey through life we peel the layers of the past away, like the layers on an onion. There is always another, deeper layer to investigate. It’s fascinating.
Tools to help
- Meditation and Prayer, Activities that help you to be “in the moment”
- Creative Visualization during meditation, vision boards…
- Positive self talk, affirmations, mantras
- Journaling – in written or art forms
- Having some automatic stops in your mind to any negative or resistant messages that pop up. Some use “Cancel, cancel, cancel” when they find their mind wandering to negative ideas
- Don’t compare yourself with others and keep conversations to those people who are supportive of your journey
- Fuel your body with good nutrition, embrace mental engagement and actively nurture your spirit
- Practice Reiki on yourself or ask a practitioner for a long distance session
- Do you read cards such as Angel cards, Spirit Animals, Tarot or other? Sometimes they can be a reassurance that you are on the right path, or may put forward new ideas moving forward. Book a reading if you want an objective opinion
Have fun with this exploration! Play! Try different music or tools for meditation, take it outside, look in the mirror when repeating affirmations, read a new book, listen to a lecture, draw, paint, colour, journal, …
These are tools that you can use to explore many aspects of your being. Find what works for you.
For now we’ll keep it to working towards Holistic Balance through change, but later you may want to take it elsewhere.